It's not a really big-deal problem in someone else's POV, but it's a big-deal problem to me.
I don't really want to keep pursuing this career with the Cello. Each time I practice, I'm not focused enough, I seemed to just.. lose my entire love for it ( Dont get me wrong, when I WANT to play, I love to, but I hate being forced into doing it if I don't want to ) and after about an hour, my arm just goes spastic and it starts to hurt so bad.
But.. my problem is that I can't tell Mom. I'm afraid or something. I know she loves me n'all and no matter what I do, she'll love me, but I'm just afraid I'll disappoint her. She's all ways boasting on how I'm in 3 Orchestras, or how well I play the cello. And it just seems.. that if I tell her, she'll be upset.
And.. ^^' That's basically what I've been thinking about this afternoon. I still have to go to bed at 9:30, as I've said in the previous entry for today, and I only get an hour more before I need to get off to... practice the cello. So I better stop staring at the screen at this entry and get on.
Ja..
~Owari~