If you haven't read the past three entries, then do it!
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7:55 P.M.
August 23rd, 2002 -- Friday
Feeling sniffle-ish. Spent about 20 minutes crying, curled up in a ball on my bed. I finally emerged from my bed taking these gasp/shuddering sigh things.. I became dependant on my Frog-Plush, Frogger, and carried him around like a small child would carry a doll arond. Lucky for me, I'm not on the mic. or Duo might worry if he heard all these sigh-things.
Yeah, I got on again. I really needed someone to talk to, just to get my mind off things. Threw on my plain little "normal" Kaichan mask and got on Yahoo.
But of course, Yahoo screwed up twice before I could actually start chatting with Duo. He cheers me up almost every time I get to talk to him. He's a good friend that way. He's been painting his room, we just talked about that.
Eh, I'm really tired alluv a sudden. Crying sucks. I'm so dependant sometimes that it makes me sick.
Y'know how little children cry for their mother? Well, I couldn't do that this time, I was just crying for anyone else but my family. So I held myself most of those 20 minutes saying how sickly dependant I was, and how I needed to stop needing to cling onto anyone that gets close to me and frighten them off. I told myself how since there's no one around to really cry with, I had to be strong for myself. Blah blah. At least it got me to get a hold of myself.
Damn Mood Swings and Monthly-Periods. I hate them.
Anyway, I thought about Duo and smiled a bit. I wondered if he was on... and he was! ^_^ So now I'm feeling better because like I mentioned before, he cheers me up even if he thinks he doesn't or he doesn't know he does.
Well, gunna have to wrap it up and save this .doc file so I can go back talking to Duo before I go to do chores. Ja.
~Owari~
P.S.
8:59
August 23rd, 2002 -- Friday
Mom called, She said I could be on for a half hour. I'm still feeling really tired, but when I got on Duo had left some messages, he seemed surprised I got on ^^' Not sure if I scared him or not, hope I didn't. -_-' Now he's saying I try to please people too hard somtimes.. n'.. -_-' I do not? @_@ I'm not sure. I'm arguing that I don't, but like I said, I'm still a little "Eh-Z.Z" -ish.
At least Duo's still here with me though. ^-^. I think I'll finally change this from a .doc to diaryland as a fourth and final entry of today with a before-warning to read three posts back.
Meep, told Duo that he cheers me up a lot of the time, guess that's okay >.o. Okay okay, now I'm going to change this into diaryland and check out his new layout..
Ohh, something scarey. Me and that guy that I hate-ever-so-much, the Heero Yuy one, have a few things in common. Such as music. o.o' Scareeeey.