Talk about starting your day off depressing.
Mom woke me up about ten minutes before the alarm went off and I just thought she was doing it to get me awake for school ( 'Cause she always comes in to wake me up @_@; ). So after she had tackled me and sat on my bed and legs, I squirmed out from under her and reached down for my pillow while hiding my face in my new feather one and she started talking.
She was sad, quiet, even hesitant. She told me about Midnight. Midnight's my Grandma's cat and he's pure black ( but now that he's old- he has some gray hairs on him here and there ), and I absolutely love this cat. He's about 14 1/2, because around the time I was born, lil'kitten Midnight had strayed from outside to our porch. They said that they fed him and shut the door, but when they opened it, he was clinging onto the screen door and mewing.
So of course, they brought him in and it went on from there.
He adores Grandma, just really, really much. It's like she's his Goddess or something.
But because he 'marks his territory' around the house whenever he gets the chance, and it SMELLS, he has to live, litterally, in Grandma's room. The door's always shut.
He has been getting old, and I guess a little senile ( Is that how to spell it? ), and he's been peeing around Gramma's room to spite her whenever she leaves it for a long period of time.
So anyway, back to what Mom told me.
She said that Grandma's decided to put him down. Put him to sleep, kill him by giving him a shot.
At the beginning of us living here in this condo, they've been talking about it, but I'd never think they'd do it. I would get mad and yell at them about it and that was that.
But today. It's really going to happen today.
I've been crying on and off today, not really loud bawling and crocidile tears.. not really sobbing. Just now and then some tears'll fall ( like now ).
I got to go into Grandma's room while she was sleeping and sit by the door and pet him for a long time. I finally got some cramp in my foot and I had to walk it off- so I told Midnight I loved him and left the room.
I really wanted to talk to someone, but heh... it's Tuesday, everyone's at school ( or sleeping, if you're in Hawaii :P ).
I decided not to go to school today. I'd just be an emotional wreck, anyways, and then people would want to know what's wrong, and then I'd cry some more and tell them and they'd hug me or whatever.
I don't know, I've been out of school a lot. Next year I'm not going to miss all these days. ( Hell, they give you ten days each semester to miss, I've probably missed fifteen this semester.. maybe twelve the past one. ) Mm.. it's already fourth quarter, too. I can't believe it. It just went by so fast.
I might be going to the Billy Joel/Elton John concert. ^__^ I really hope I do. It's about $75 each person for a 'nosebleed'/really-cheap seat. Mom might get two tickets and take me. ^____^ Oh I really really hope I go. It's in... three days? o_O It's this weekend.
April will be hell. It really will. I can't wait for April. o_O; Allow me to elaborate..
On the 2nd to the 4th of April, I will be in Carson City for All-State. I have my piece memorized and now all I have to do is practice with the pianist that's accompianing me. What's kinda sucky is, that it'll be nine long hours on a bus both ways. Joy.
Not that I'm complaining. I love riding cars/buses sometimes. I just have to be in the 'mood.'
Then on the 9th, I'm going to go see Mama Mia. A musical with all of ABBA's 'greatest hits.' That'll be fun. My Grandma and Papa're taking me, and because they have money, they got the really good seats up front, middle.
Then on the 11th to the 14th, I'll be on a cruise. Ah yeah. I can't wait. A -cruise-! It's for Orchestra, and we're going to Ensenada ( It's in Mexico. I'm hoping a good part of Mexico = ). We will be stopping in Ensenada, and we will be doing things. There were three options you could pick: A tour group, a shopping group, or a horse-back riding group. Hell, everyone should know what I picked ^_^ Horse-back all the way. I'm hoping that they'll have the horses run while we're on them. *purr* Always wanted to be on a running horse ^^.
I've been neglecting some people... especially someone I really enjoy talking to. I haven't seen him around, so I'm hoping he's not missing me too much and is doing well and doing some things to not get himself in trouble... though there's nothing to do in Kansas.. =.
Yeah, this 'guy' is Jeremy. He's one of Andy's friends that I met a while back and we've been talking a lot. He's really nice, amazingly, to be one of Andy's friends. o_O;
But now I miss him. --; I also miss Clone and Duoness and Cass and everyone else ~.~;
Okay, enough 'missing' here. I need to go and 'mingle' around the internet. Maybe rewrite this sixth part of And Then There Was Silence, since I need it to be more than rated G. *shudder*
Love ya, peoples ^_^ I really do.
Ja~
~Owari~
P.S. - About that layout.. I'm not sure when I'll get to it.. It's officially post-ponded. :| ( And what is it with me and all these 'new' faces? O_o; Dunno, I'll hafta look into that.. )
Update: I didn't go to school today at all. I just couldn't. We went to the vet and I was the only one who stayed in the room. My vet.. -My- vet, who takes care of Missy and clips her nails when she needs it, who gave Lassie her medicine when we had her. He came in to do it. It took him a while to come into the room... I don't doubt him. He didn't want to do it. You could just tell by looking in his eyes. Mom left when he entered and I stayed. He even was trying not to cry as he was doing it.
I watched him do the shot and then not even a minute later he had put his stethescope (I don't care if it's right or not..) to listen and he merely nodded, still holding back tears.
God I flipped. I didn't know it'd be so fast. I cried. A lot. I didn't even leave the room until I had stopped and my vet had just hugged/held me.
So I felt a little better. Midnight's always going to be with me and Gramma and pretty soon, we'll feel better and not so down and depressed.
Jax2..