I can't express myself well on the net.. and it hurts me that I can't.
I don't think I've ever cried this hard in a long time over someone.
He just acts like I don't care about him and that I don't want to do anything to help him and I do and it hurts me so bad that he thinks that.. I can't change it, and it makes me cry even harder about it.
I've only heard myself whimper a few times but this is a different kind of whimper.. I've never trembled like this before..
I want to help him I do, I just can't.. he doesn't understand that..
He just left, I guess he didn't catch on that I was crying.
I don't know how anyone can catch on that I'm crying through words.
If I didn't say I was crying when I started this, would you be able to tell?
Oh god, this is horrible. I feel so broken and damaged.
I just want to make it go away and it won't, and no one can help me. I know they try, and they do know what to do.. all I need is to be held, but right now, even just a spiritual holding isn't good enough..
My face is really wet.. and my throat's all clogged with all this .. eh.. snot. --; I can't really breathe well at the moment, either.
I think I'm going to curl in my bed and try to sleep or cry my feelings out..
What a headache...
Ja..
Owari