Ten hours after a seven hour school day.. I just can't do it, especially since it takes one additional hour to get home.
Tuesdays.. I have Cello Practice, an hour. So make that twelve hours after a seven hour school day.
Wednesday... Geeze. I come home and get to stay there for four hours, then I leave for two hours, and come back just in time for possibly two hours to eat, get changed, shower, and do my homework that takes somewhere around four hours, depending on the classes I had that day.
Agh..
It's so stressful.. I break at the tiniest things lately. Like when my P.E. teacher had noted oh-so-politely that I had 'gained weight' over the summer, and that if I hadn't, that I sure 'looked like it.'
And these Judging Amy shows on TNT have been so angsty that I -cry- at the episodes! ><.. AND THERE'S TWO IN A ROW... T_T; But it's such a good show..
I've also been drawing some angsty things, thinking of some angsty stuff..
...
Annngh... I've had recent thoughts of these insane things I'd rather not mention.
Hnn..
Let's see...
The kittens are doing fine, both Kaichan and Yuki, though, may have to be declawed.. their claws hurt! And Kai has thumbs, so her fifth claw's making really odd scratch marks with her other claws.. it's funny, in a way. If you don't mind the horrible burning.. XD *cough*
*hits random keys* fdjkasfj49awjfkd sdkfjklsdjfklasdf
I've never been so frustrated to come back to the computer... I'm so worried how people're going to react.. I don't know what to say to some people.. agh.. I miss you all, understand this! And those that were insane enough to let me have their addresses... I promise, I'm writing you guys. Duo, Xling.. Cass..... Jae..
*hums*
I can't think of any breaks coming up.. I'm only allowed online on weekends, but I sneak on occasionally... this weekend.. if I'm feeling up to the emotional beatings that I know I'm going to get.. I'll come.
*hums more*
Let's see..
Honor Orchestra's coming up. Actually, they gave us excerpts to practice just recently, and the audition times are the 27th. Which is most of the reason of my four hour practice sessions a day.
Think of it this way...
The school music they have given us are First Grade.
The Honor Orchestra excerpts they have given us are 12th grade.
And yes, there is music muchmuchmuch higher than 12th.
Anyway.. the stress from Honor Orchestra should blow away soon. Then I can go back to one.. possibly two practice hours a day and I can probably speed up my homework rate.. maybe cut out an hour from that.
Agh, I shouldn't be planning things in my diary.
I need to go before mom wakes up. I'd appreciate it, since I obviously take away people's hope and let people down, if I didn't get any feedback from this entry.
Thanks.
Ja~
~Owari~
P.S. I'd like to mention that I'm on my period. Yes, I'm using the term loosely this time. Deal with it or click that X on your browser.
Savvy?