Let's see.. I layed down at 9:30 and thought about calling Andy beforehand because he had wanted me to call.. was asking and hinting... but I'ma call him after Orchestra Practice today.
Mm.. Bob called and we had planned to just not hang up and sleep over the phone/cell. Which seems to work for us any other night when we don't plan it and my mom doesn't come home late and the possibility of me getting trouble is horribly high..
But it just didn't seem to work for me.
I could tell he was sounding exhausted around 2:30-3:00-ish his time (He lives in NJ, East Coaster), and we told eachother good night and sleep well and that sort of stuff around that time, too and just didn't say anything else and tried to sleep.
He fell asleep without any trouble, it seemed. Was nice to just listen to him sleep.
Was nice to just listen to him sleep all night and not get any, too.
*sigh*
I couldn't find a way to have the cell to my ear and be comfortable.. a couple times I just stared blankly up at the ceiling.. not sure if I ever closed my eyes, but it did feel as if I was sort of asleep.
Then a half hour later I could hear him move and he said.. something.
I asked him to repeat it, he did, still didn't understand. I told him.. "One more time?" and he fell quiet. So I think he was just talking in his sleep.
But then he just sort of sighed and went "Mhh.."
So I told him I couldn't sleep, he made another "Mhh" and that was all I got out of him.
More shifting, more staring, more listening to Bob sleep, no sleeping.
Around three his phone died. I think I cried. Not sure if it was because I knew that my alarm would go off in an hour and that I was extremely exhausted or that I couldn't be there with him when he woke up.
It hit four pretty slowly.. and I still hadn't fallen asleep. I thought I'd give him a call, so I got his number up on the cell, pressed "call" and let it ring once. Then I hung up. -_- Sssigh. I have a tendancy for doing that. But at least this time, unlike the first, I just called once and let it ring once. (See, cause, last time.. I hadn't seen him online, but wanted to talk to him.... so I called his house, let it ring once, got scared, hung up. Called again, let it ring twice, got scared, hung up. Not sure if I called a third time or not, but he called back. oO; --;; I feel like a ... like a stalker or something. *shrugs*) But anyway, he hasn't called back, so I'm not putting hopes or bets that he will at this time.
I moved my alarm an hour extra for 5, but I just couldn't do that to myself.
I couldn't just.. go to sleep for an hour and actually expect to get up and go to school.
So hell, I'll just sleep really, really well tonight, right?
*yyyaaaawwn* My eyes are unintentionally watering now.
But anyway.
I stumbled my little sleep deprived self and got something to drink. Gramma came out of her room with some trash and demanded why I was up.
I'm not a morning person. I'm a mean, cruel, cold hearted, feral, cat-like, growling bitch to people in the morning. ... Well, most of the time, anyway.
So I said something about waking up early and I grabbed an apple and that was that.
Mrh.. she kept asking questions and I kept short-answering them until she left.
She came out again and saw me on here and went, "Don't you think you plant yourself on there enough in the day time as it is? Why are you waking up early to get on there? Won't you give it a fucking rest? Who are you talking to? What are you doing?"
Is when Morning-(*sneeze*)Jen kicked in and I yelled/said loudly/told her that the alarm didn't go off and I don't get up early to get on.
Then she left again.
(*pets Lil-Bit and rolls her head around her neck/shoulders*)
But that's the only time Morning-Jen hit me.
I hope when mom gets home that I won't be Morning-Jenish to her. ;-;' Cause she challenges and yells back at me.
*stares at uneaten apple* I think I'm going to put that back where I found it and not eat anything.
(*twitches and falls to her side on the ground* Aah.. Jesus God, my neck! T_T It burns! THE PAIN! THE UNDYING PAIN OF IT ALL!! T_T...)
*clears throat* Anyway. I have first lunch, so I'll be eating around 10:30 today, so I can wait until then to eat.
So blah. Stop looking at me like that. --;
(*continues rolling on the ground, this time on her back* Back... itches.. T_T)
(*yawn, sniffs a little to stop a sneeze*)
Hm..
I've been thinking about getting my own little domain.. but I don't know what I'll use it for.
Cass' site has like.. the hodgepodge stuffage. Information and avatars and stuff like that. Xling's first is a little online community, and her second is.. more information and pictures. Duo's is Fan-stuffs..
I'm thinking about making a Web-comic.
Which brings me to ask myself, "Do I have the time, patience, inspiration to handle a web comic?" and "What if I don't draw up to people's expectations and they don't come back and the whole idea was a failure?" and "If I can never finish a story..., how do I plan to make a nice little plot using only anime girls (which is the only thing I can draw) and actually expect myself to keep it ongoing?" and "I can only draw anime girls.. how will this be successful?"
Just a lot of uncertainness.
A friend named Ben once told me that I'm the most uncertain person he's ever met and I think I said: "Yeah? Well.. think of me as a demon-angel of uncertainty. o_o;.. O_o;.. lol"
Or something like that..
Hm.. Tiffany's bringing a book on how to draw anime people.. I think I've already seen it, but I never really used it (just read it when I got it from the library). She's letting me borrow it for a while so I can get the grasp of guys.
I might fish around the book for Chibis and animals.. and possibly backgrounds and machines.
(My eyes! One is watery and one is dry and scratchy...! ;-; Why does my body hate me?)
(T_T; It's suddenly getting cold..
*kills the ()'s on that one because that reminded her of something*
All last night I was cold. I couldn't get warm.. and I was thirsty, too. Really dry throat.
Hope I'm not getting sick. Again.
-_-;
*runs in circles* Mom's not getting home until.. *stares at the clock for a long time* six or so. I have another hour to kill, it seems.
And Bob should be getting at school if he's not already cause he starts school at eight and it'll be eight there soon.
(*shiver* --; *grabs blanket*)
Let's see..
I really should find what I'm going to wear today and change my backpack. Take out all the heavy books and put in today's class' stuff in. (Orchestra folder, Geometry folder and book, P.E. clothes, and Japanese folder and book)
*stares once more at the clock, then at the cell phone*
I'm kinda.. zonin' out it seems.
Ten minutes later..
No.. see.. This time I didn't zone out. I went to my room and got my better blanket and turned on the radio on the alarm clock to listen to whatever was playing and I stood there for a song.
Is a good song.. I need to find the name of it after this entry. I'll post the lyrics next time.
Mm.. and then the other song came on after it, "The First Cut is the Deepest"
Faith Hill/Sheryl Crow ... oO; ... one of them remade it. I can't remember which.
Mrrrrr.. I turn on VH1 for maybe a decent song to listen to and the thing that plays is Metallica/Frantic.
--;;....
Is... eh.. okay. The video's .... unique o_O;.. in a good way. I wouldn't willingly download it though.
Mm.. a sad video is "The Scientist" by Coldplay.
And now Jason Mraz is playing. Wuuuhee! Chickens! ^^... ¬.¬;; Sorry.. *stops talking about VH1 and music videos*
Anyway!
*hugs onto her pillow and stares again at the apple* oO;
God damned neck..
_-_;
*tries to think of more updates on her little life*
Ohhh.. Honor Orchestra try outs are the 27th, I said this, yes?
*stares at the cello case* Mph.. is stressful. I strongly dislike my orchestra class. To the point of tears.
But I can't just take it as an elective because then you can't move up. (Not that I moved up this year, the bitch. Hardly anyone moved up anyone.. -_- Gah.. that topic just pets-(GAHHHH IT'S JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE T_T *cries and rockets up, tries running to the television, trips over a chair doing so, falls, leaps up and turns off the tv*)-me the wrong way no matter when I talk about it.)
But anyway. I will move up this semester, and I will double major in Japanese and Orchestra next year.
Yes.
And over the summer, I'm thinking of taking.. Chemistry. Since I failed Bio. I last year and the summer school teacher failed everyone in the class, and I have to take Bio. I this year. I'll just catch up over this summer. And I'm taking Driver's Ed as a distance class (meaning you get homework assignments in the mail and have to watch something on de' tv) sometime this year/this summer..
-_- I'm not in a hurry to drive.. I don't care what any of you say. ;-;' Is scary.
..... Meheh. ... Hehehe.. Reminds me when last night, Bob and I were talking about old-old-old Nickelodeon shows and I brought up that when "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" came on, I'd always turn it off and just sit in the living room doing nothing for an hour until it came off. o_o I was so scared of that show.. T_T''
Hmm.. yeah, well. I better end this thing before it turns into a novel or something. (That, and I need to look up that song I mentioned earlier).
Ja~
~Owari~