Second, why I haven't been around is a legit reason, but still an excuse, which I seem to be full of.
My mom's been sick lately and in a lot of pain. I went to the hospital with her and we stayed there for 11 hours. Ever since I went to the hospital, my days have been long and exhausting.
I apologize, Kris, for not being able to send a Birthday-something to you through e-mail, Andy's working on getting your address so I can send your card and present to you soon. And I apologize deeply, Jae, for not responding to your e-mail. I'm not sure if you sent any more, but the one I'm referring to is the one when you came back from your friend's funeral.
My mom's on a disability leave until December 30th and she'll be having an operation on the 17th of Novemeber.
What the doctors and OB-GYN have found is a mass the size of an egg in her uterus that has a possibility of being cancer. When she found this out, she made an operation date.
Before she goes into surgery, she needed a mammogram. So she had one. And they found some small masses in her chest, as well. Chances that the masses are cancer as well are small, but there. Everyone is hoping that they are just the minor masses one would get during that monthly friend.
I'll be missing school from the 17th til the 1st of Dec. and I doubt I'll be on anytime soon. I may get on on the 17th, but I'm not sure yet, my stress level's been sky-rocketing and I've been so emotional that I cried for thirty minutes just because my shirt was backwards. I've failed two classes and the rest of my grades are C's and B's.
I've been getting little sleep, but on Friday I dropped myself on my bed at 6 pm and passed out for 14 hours, so I guess that counts for something.
I don't want sympathy and I don't want pity. I don't think I want any acceptances to my apologies, either. I don't deserve them because I haven't done anything to deserve them but give you an update on what's happening.
Christmas is coming soon, expect something from me in the mail a few days before Christmas.
I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm doing well. My stress has leveled a bit and I've laughed instead of cried recently, so all is well with the Jen.
Ja.
~Owari~
P.S. I might update if something comes up.